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(no subject) [Oct. 1st, 2007|09:19 pm]
Cathy * Ann
every day i try so hard just to not think about him. I keep myself busy with school work and i hangout with some of the funniest,most caring, people around. I'll do anything just to get him out of my head because i love him. I know he's not treating me right, i know my life has spun out of control because of him, i know i was used, i know how i felt and yet i cant let go.

He wont call tonight, he probably wont call tomorrow either, and i highly doubt that he'll come with me to the islander game on saturday.
I've never let a person walk all over me before.

& the confusing thing is that he apologized...for everything. He held me so tight and we were both crying, just trying to hold on to what we have..what we had.

But im beginning to think that his apology came too late.
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(no subject) [Oct. 2nd, 2006|09:41 pm]
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im really happy. =]

& getting really impatient.
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(no subject) [Jun. 21st, 2006|10:18 am]
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 "Can i sit with you? I want to sit with you. " - Mr. Rutigliano 
"We are hanging out ALOT this summer." - Lauren Clarke 
"I know we havent hungout in a long time but can you go on a walk with me?" - 
"I know its awkward between us, but call me if you need anything." 
Thankyou, Bobby, for  bringing me closer to so many people. 
i bet Italy looks better from up there. I love you, watch over us.

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(no subject) [Jun. 17th, 2006|09:14 am]
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Bobby united us. 
I remember the first day of italian this year, it was a mixed class between juniors and seniors and absolutely no one REALLY knew eachother. All of the juniors sat on one side and all of the seniors sat on the other. I remember the bell rang and i thought to myself 'god this class is going to suck.' About 5 minutes after the bell rang Bobby sprinted into our class, threw his backpack on the seat in the front row, and than begain introducing himself to us. After he did that rutigliano yelled at him to sit down (which he did alot this year haha) and the class grew awkwardly silent again. All of a sudden the song "No scrubs" by TLC started blasting in the room and Bobby was holding his mp3 player at full volume and dancing in his seat. hahah i'll never forget that. He made that class so close. 

Everyday bobby would sit next to me. We created this crazy, long handshake and we would stop Rutigliano in class just to show it to everyone. No one ever caught on and Bobby refused to let anyone know what it was. Hed always sit behind me and give me a massage and than yell at me when i said i felt uncomfortable haha. I remember one week he kept asking us to go with him to prom. He was so excited for his prom. Sometimes Rutigliano would be teaching and all of a sudden Bobby would jump out of his seat and start telling us a weather forcast for the day. You looked outside and it would be pouring and Bobby would say "Today it will be very sunny with highs of 101" haha. He always got up in the middle of class and did the most random things. Like one time he got us and read us 20 names of authors from the library with names ranging from "charles dickinson" to "peter E. Cummings" he loved it. we loved him. 

That class is so close because of him. I can go on and on about Bobby in that class like when he was 'a memory' but didnt die yet and it was 8th period already and he was talking like crazy haha or when we threw munckins at his back while he was taking his final and hes like "yO man what the hell!" or when he got his essay to right and he was like "yo man im not writing, i dont even know what the hell im trying to write." he got a 5/20 hahaa. H euse to always come to associated on sundays and talk to me for about 15 minutes. He would bag my groceries and every day hed be on a search for "Butterscotch pudding." He never let me down and even though i only asked him once to come visit me, he came every single sunday. When i found out what happened kids from that Italian class were calling me to talk about it. I remember at the vigil i stood with that class and we were all talking about the good times with bobby and than we agreed to all hangout more. Bobby did that. He got us together;made us good friends. I ran up to school to visit Rutigliano and seeing him was just crazy. He couldnt look me in the eye and whenever he did we would all start tearing. It helped though, becuase we just shared our laughs and i think we helped him. He was a wreck but he needed to see us. 

I'll never forget when bobby gave me his graduation picture and than we did our little handshake and he said 'im going to be famous, you're going to want to keep that picture!" Than i gave him a hug. 
Yesterday I was in the square with the most random kids, but we all had one thing in common - Bobby. We sat there and guarded his candles until the police told us to move it off the monument and onto the stairs. I dont know, i feel like bobby is at that place and i feel so uncomfortable sitting at my house and not sitting there. This summer is going to be hard. I just hope i can be there for my friends.
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(no subject) [May. 5th, 2006|08:41 pm]
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SAT  II tomorroww 1 hour of pure bullshiting.

ohh and i got my jr prom dress 
my prom dress
its a little darker in person, not so much yellow but dark green. I LOVEEEEE It. and the fabric is beautiful. 
no date? its chill though. Im bumped just to wear it, who needs the actual prom?

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(no subject) [Apr. 25th, 2006|06:42 pm]
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rhinos. hahahah
hahahhaa. love the rhino<3 tts.
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(no subject) [Apr. 18th, 2006|06:43 pm]
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i wasent even home when this happened but im glad to know im smarter than anyone who would ever do this. You should know that
 you 4 are ASSHOLES.
im ashamed of trusting you guys in the past. 
Seriously, you dont do that. DONT CALL ME. 
DONT EVER TALK TO ME AGAIN, because i wont answer.

I dont care if this embarasses you, because you embarassed us. 
just remember - PAY BACK IS A BITCH. 


(no subject) [Apr. 13th, 2006|11:35 pm]
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(no subject) [Jun. 25th, 2005|04:30 pm]
Cathy * Ann

The Crisis in Darfur
Violence and destruction are raging in the Darfur region of western Sudan. Since February 2003, government-sponsored militias known as the Janjaweed have conducted a calculated campaign of slaughter, rape, starvation and displacement in Darfur.

It is estimated that 400,000 people have died due to violence, starvation and disease. More than 2.5 million people have been displaced from their homes and over 200,000 have fled across the border to Chad. Many now live in camps lacking adequate food, shelter, sanitation, and health care.

The United States Congress and President George W. Bush recognized the situation in Darfur as "genocide." Darfur, "near Hell on Earth," has been declared the worst humanitarian crisis in the world today.
- savedarfur.org

I know it may seem lame to actually put in some effort to help but i just sent a few letters to some pretty important people. You can find the letters on savedarfur.org and they give you the addresses of the president, vicepresident, congressman, and senators. Honestly, it takes less than 5 minutes to copy and paste these letters into an email, and its worth it. Please do whatever you can..even if you just tell your parents about it. It makes such a difference. Thanks guys.

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(no subject) [Jun. 14th, 2004|04:22 pm]
Cathy * Ann

comment and add to be added.
if you are already on my friends list than dont comment
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